Since this blog no longer serves as a purpose.
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Only those of you who are part of my new life will know of the address of the new one.

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Is this the beginning of something sad or is this end of something great?
With every new path one must either label it a new journey or the end of a previous one.

Girl you know we belong together
I have no time for you to be playing
With my heart like this
You'll be mine forever baby, you just see

We belong together
And you that I'm right
Why do you play with my heart,
Why do you play with my mind?

Said we'd be forever
Said it'd never die
How could you love me and leave me
And never say good-bye?

When I can't sleep at night without holding you tight
Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry
Pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinnin' around and around

Although we've come to the End Of The Road
Still I can't let you go
It's unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
It's only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I

Can you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me, don't let me down

Girl, I know you really love me,
You just don't realize
You've never been there before
It's only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
Maybe you'll try
We should be happy together
Forever, you and I

Can you love me again like you loved me before
This time I want you to love me much more
This time instead just come to my bed
And baby just don't let me, don't let me down

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My ideal girl : Intelligent, beautiful, sophisticated, cultured, mannered and comfortable.

Reality: unintelligent, homely, uneducated, and comfortable.

A certain friend of a friend of mine was told by her boyfriends parents that to marry their son she had to be able to support herself to the extent she wouldn't burden her son. They asked for 50 000$ from her personally to be put aside if the two should marry. Now coming from a working class background and working at her $10 a hr job she realised that she could never afford 50 000$ needed for marriage. When she asked her boyfriend about it, he shrugged saying his parents said it in their best interest.

Now having loved her boyfriend she was willing to do anything for him, and she did the only thing that could make a lot of money in a year to be able to afford 50 000$- prostitution. Her boyfriend was oblivious to all this being a spoilt kid who thinks money comes out of nowhere, and when she had to borrow $2000 to come overseas he demanded she pay back from her earnings ASAP. She repaid back 1800$ in the first 2weeks where he demanded where was the other $200.
Obviously shes hurt /confused/hateful of the whole situation.

I can only imagine what it is like to be loved like a girl like her. A girl who is willing to do everything, (the boyfriend does not deserve her) for love.
Obviously I am not asking a girl to go sell her body so I can have spending money, its rather that she was willing to do so much to be with someone she loved. Isn't that true love? It's a reality check for me, to realise that my search for love all my life has been in vain, when I am willing to do so much for them, but they aren't willing to do reprocipiate it.

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At a pub recently my friend dared me to talk to these 2 very rich looking girls from china. If you want to talk to strangers(girls) without looking like a total sleaze that tries to pick up any attractive girl you have to talk to them at the "right" moment. That right moment, timing is the single most important aspect of making the attack. If you strike a conversation at the "right" moment you can talk to anyone in the world, so knowing when to strike a conversation is probably one of the most important aspects of talking to strangers. Of course if a girl finds you attractive previous to chatting to them it makes things a lot easier.

By no means do I proffess to be an expert on the art of striking a conversation with a stranger, but I have a master who has taught me many things. These girls were obviously money, wearing about 9000$ worth of gear on them each. This is where things all go wrong. They've been in australia for 3years ,but their english is worse than a 3year old which makes it very hard to communicate, especially when she had to type her name out on the palmpiolet to make her name known.

They say they are accountants, who studied in china at the young age of 21 while being living in australia for 3years. So they finished their university at 18..great we have a bunch of geniuses from china who can't speak english after living here for 3years.

This is what me and my friend call "slut shop girls", girls who lie about their idenity to mask their true proffesion -prostitutes. 50% of decent looking oversea students in sydney city are hookers. And no , I can't be bothered meeting them again, besides it was just something to do rather than me being interested in them. As someone here knows, I think I have someone in my life. :)

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There lived once a prince of a providence in Japan. He was neither dashing, handsome ,but neither was he stupid or slow. He was a kind hearted man, who tried to help others that needed his help, but neither was he an exceptionally nice man. During those days, christianity in japan was being persecuted after the shogunate in japan deemed them to be a threat to the royal shinto religion of japan. The prince was impartial in their persecution , he was busy living his own life to worry about the life of others. When his soldiers arrested christians, he treated them like everyone else, jailed those that were guilty ,but at the same time he freed those who he viewed had no sins. Upon a chance one ofthese arrests led to the capture of the most beautiful maiden in the world he had ever seen in his life. For the first time in his life the prince was in love.

He demanded the soldiers to release the girl captive immediately and asked her to to be with him as a companion. The more he talked to her, the more he got captivated by her beauty and fierce independent nature. For the first time in his life he felt there was a girl who seemed to like him for who he was, not for the prince he was meant to be. Because of his love for her, he secretely allowed all the christians that were captured to be released. When word of his lenience towards christians spread to the shogunate, he was immediately punished and looked infavoribly by the rest of the court. But he did not mind, he loved the girl nevertheless.

Going against all court rules and knowing he could be outcast from the court, he asked the christian girl to marry him. He was ready to give up his crown, and live a humble life in the mountains as a farmer with the girl, because he truely loved her. The girl however rejected him saying she could only marry a christian , and could not marry someone part of a government that persecuted christians. He begged for manydays, and pleaded with her to change her mind, promising to live a life of a christian even if he wasn't one. But she refused saying she felt jesus christ would not approve her marrying someone who did not believe in him. She left saying sorry while he enraged at home for months. For months he sat at home doing nothing, but brooding in anger and hurtful pain.

He could not blame the girl for not choosing to marrying him, because he knew she loved him, and instead he blamed christianity. The normal prince once known for his fairity and calm nature changed over the months. He soon became famous all around the country as the impaler and the red demon of rage with christians. Soon the whole region which was once a calm, peaceful world and a refuge for christians became a place of sadism and torture. Christians were hunted and crucified everywhere, his anger knew no bounds till his samurais hunted all across japan hunting every christian they could.

One day leading a small troop of samurais to a village of christian which he torched, he noticed one of his prisoners was a midaged woman with carrying a two kids on her back. For some reason her face was very familiar and upon approaching they immediately recognsied each others faces. Their eyes met each other briefly , all of a sudden all the hatred within him disappeaerd replaced with sadness.

"Why did you leave me?
Why did you hurt me so?
Why did you make me the man I am now?"
To which she replied ," I did nothing, you made your own choice, it was you who chose your life, like I chose mine."

To which the prince replied ,"For your selfishiness in thinking you did what jesus wanted you to do, you have cost me my soul and the lives of thousands of christians nation wide. Lady you have sacrificed my soul to rot in hell for eternity for you to go to heaven." He left the village unharmed without a word, while she weeped uncontrollably realising that the unselfish action she thought she made earlier on, infact was the selfish one.

She had the power to help transform japan into a country that accepted christians, and help save a mans soul, but she chose in her selfish ways to save her own soul at the cost of thousands of other peoples souls. Being a true christian is about saving the souls of the non christians, not about saving your own. And when she had the power and opportunity to help christians throughout japan she selfishly did not think about saving ot her people, just thought about her own soul. As a christian what is more important, saving ones own soul or saving the souls of others? I guess only Jesus would know..but what would he have done I wonder..

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New clothes, new perspective of life, New destiney,.and most importantly new house! Some of the pics from the realestate casting syncs very home.

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